Happy Saturday š± this morning Iām sipping coffee and feeling..
Added 2022-06-18 19:38:03 +0000 UTCHappy Saturday š± this morning Iām sipping coffee and feeling pretty in my comfy āloungingā lingerie while watching peaceful videos on YouTube about plants šæšŖ“ I am in love with my houseplants and am learning so much about how to take better care of them. Just know these days a healthy chunk of my OnlyFans earnings will go toward more plants LOL My hobbies these days really reflect my big passions in life - namely, creating calm moods and bringing softness into my little world. I deal with very severe anxiety and have for most of my life, so making a comfortable home for myself is really important. I used to look at it like a chore, or Iād enviously watch Architectural Digest videos or scroll Pinterest feeling like a calm environment was somehow out of reach for me ā¦ maybe a part of me felt gluttonous for wanting to spend money on house stuff, as if I should be putting effort into more āproductiveā hobbies etc. Although since Iāve been asking myself a lot of big questions lately, like what my motivations are and why I put limitations on myself etc ā¦ Iām realizing that one of my biggest dreams as to how I would use ātop creatorā money would be to make the perfect dreamy home for myself! That would truly make me happy. A lot of the things I own are cheap or poor quality because I felt like I shouldnāt get higher quality fabrics for textiles or fancier pots for my plants etc ā¦ š± but Iām gonna trust my ability to make my dreams come true AND allow myself to enjoy whatever hobbies or passions I have without guilt. Kind of a random diary entry but I felt like sharing ā¤ļø
