Ho Ho Ho! December has arrived and it's time to morph into Santa for another year of making many kinds of fantasies come true ๐๐
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Please let me know what you'd like Santa to do for you and me and the elves will try their best to make it happen for you.
It will be a challenging month because, well, you already know, but I have some exciting things in store, the first of which comes next Thursday with the release of the "Turn Back The Clock" single and music video. I have a few more things in the works but I would rath...
2024-12-01 15:20:30 +0000 UTC
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Good morning guys, woke up today remembering this photo shoot, it was so fun (and liberating!) ๐คช๐
4th chemo cycle is about to end, so expect videos and more coming in one or two days โบ๏ธ
I have finished the "Turn Back The Clock" music video!!! ๐ It took me forever, but I think it's going to be a great addition to the collection. I don't want to spoil the fun of discovering what it's about, but I can tell you it will premiere on Youtube next Thursday (December 5th).
Have a great Saturday ๐ โค๏ธ...
2024-11-30 15:00:56 +0000 UTC
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Good morning guys, got new pajamas and of course had to take some pictures for you before the actual photo shoot ๐๐ธ๐ผ
I took these pics yesterday and woke up early today to do a "quick" edit of them. I'm hoping to do a proper photo shoot in them next week during chemo break.
This cycle is definitely going better, I have a little more energy because I'm not overdoing it, and although it is what it is, it's bearable. Only 4 more days...
Have a great Friday ๐ โค๏ธ
2024-11-29 16:30:10 +0000 UTC
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Good morning guys, let's play a game... what was I thinking on this set of pictures? ๐ค๐๐คช
These were taken by Evert in September 2021 and I thought they would make a nice #throwbackthursday โบ๏ธ It was a little game of character study.
Things are slow this week, the last days of each chemo cycle are like this, I have to follow a tight schedule of meals and rest and can't do much else. The other day even the TV remote weighed a ton, crazy! But the good thing is that it's not constant. Yesterday, for example, I was able t...
2024-11-28 15:00:57 +0000 UTC
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Good morning guys, while going through my vault looking for stuff to use in the music video I'm working on for "Turn Back The Clock" I found this selection of pictures from my first "official" photo shoot as Benjamin Koll ๐ผ
The pictures were taken by my (now) husband during my first visit to Guadalajara (Mexico) on April 29th, 2015. At that time I had decided to quit my career as a mainstream music producer to follow this dream of mine to finally dare to be an artist myself, and we were looking for ways to pre...
2024-11-27 16:17:59 +0000 UTC
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Good morning, everyone! This is my second encounter with Eliud, and things get a little steamy as we take our clothes off. ๐ผ๐๐ป
Please welcome my dear friend Eliud, he's about to open his own OF page, I'll let you know when it's ready so I can tag him properly, and please respect our privacy and don't post this video elsewhere ๐๐ป.
Have a great Monday ๐ โค๏ธ
2024-11-25 15:00:51 +0000 UTC
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Good morning guys, a friend told me yesterday that he was planning to visit Maspalomas beach in the Grand Canary Islands and I remembered this photo shoot we did there in 2013. What a beautiful place. ๐๐ผ
It was around 6pm, we had the beach to ourselves and took lots of pictures that I've been able to edit and make look better than ever. I love how technology is progressing these days! โบ๏ธ
Sorry I wasn't able to edit the second chapter of my new collaboration with Eliud in time to post it today, I was working on the upcom...
2024-11-24 15:14:48 +0000 UTC
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Good morning guys! Eliud and I are meeting again and this time we are going all out, starting with a nice cuddling and kissing session ๐ผ๐๐ป
Please welcome my dear friend Eliud, he's about to open his own OF page, I'll let you know when it's ready so I can tag him properly, and please respect our privacy and don't post this video elsewhere ๐๐ป Chapter two is out probably tomorrow.
Thank you so much for your comments and messages these days, they mean a lot. I'm approaching the middle part of my chemo treatment and the...
2024-11-23 15:00:47 +0000 UTC
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Good morning everyone! As we approach this year's Christmas season, I'm preparing for you a December full of Santa joy and surprises ๐
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I'm going to keep yesterday's new "Can I Be Loved" music video pinned to my profile for a few more days so you don't miss it. Now I'm working on two other videos, which I hope to have ready in time.
The first music video (long in the making) will accompany a "Turn Back The Clock" single release for download and streaming on December 5th. It's a special version I made for live perf...
2024-11-22 15:00:59 +0000 UTC
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Hey guys, it's finally here! This is the "Adamite" version of "Can I be Loved", a music video that has been a long time in the making โบ๏ธ
I shot this video last year and released a YouTube version and another uncensored version here and on my other subscription sites. The uncensored version has some shots (on digital screens) of me without clothes, because that was the original idea for the video (there are some words I can't use in this text to avoid blocking). The first video I shot was in Adam's clothes (hence the title "Adamite ...
2024-11-21 18:33:26 +0000 UTC
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Good morning guys! Time to share the last video of this 6 part series with Eliud, a nice and grand finale ๐คช๐ผ๐ฆ๐ป
Coming up next, our second encounter, which happened a week later, was less massage and more fun in bed ๐ Stay tuned!
Please welcome my dear friend Eliud, he's about to open his own OF page, I'll let you know when it's ready so I can tag him properly, and please respect our privacy and don't post this video elsewhere ๐๐ป
Yesterday I started the 4th cycle with the I.V. part of the treatment and ...
2024-11-20 15:00:51 +0000 UTC
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Good morning guys! Two releases in a row? Are we crazy or what?? ๐๐ฆ๐คช
I shot this last Friday. I'm still a little insecure about my scars and I also was not sure I was going to be able to cum, but to my surprise it felt great and I came more than the last time with Eliud, so yay me! ๐๐ฆ๐
I'm starting my fourth chemo cycle today (I programmed this post yesterday so you had some entertainment today โบ๏ธ). I'll be in and out most of the day, but probably won't be able to do much. I'll keep you posted here and on soc...
2024-11-19 15:00:36 +0000 UTC
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Good morning guys, time for a nice and goooood release, what better way to start the week? ๐๐ฆ๐ป
Please welcome my dear friend Eliud, he's about to open his own OF page, I'll let you know when it's ready so I can tag him properly, and please respect our privacy and don't post this video elsewhere ๐๐ป
The week starts a little hectic, I have to keep editing and hopefully finish the first draft of the subscriber edition of "Can I Be Loved" today. Tomorrow I start my fourth cycle of chemotherapy, which means I'll be out m...
2024-11-18 15:38:24 +0000 UTC
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Good morning with a Lego twist โบ๏ธ and a b-side for those who like cake ๐ฐ๐
Quick post because I have a lot to do this morning (for you). The thing about my 7 day break from chemo is that I get my energy back, so it's the best time to create content that I can edit later when treatment resumes so I have stuff to share with you. The downside is I get stressed because there's a lot on the list and I have to prioritize โบ๏ธ but it's all good. Thank you so much for supporting me here, with your help I'm able to pay for my treatme...
2024-11-16 15:56:41 +0000 UTC
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Good morning guys! my first encounter with Eliud continues and this time I take over and give my dear friend the king treatment ๐๐.
Please welcome Eliud, he's about to open his own OF page, I'll let you know when it's ready so I can tag him properly, and please respect our privacy and don't post this video elsewhere ๐๐ป
My chemo break is going well, my facial skin is almost back to its optimal state (the things you learn on this journey...) and I am 1/3 of the way through the "Can I Be Loved" video. So far ...
2024-11-15 16:17:24 +0000 UTC
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Good morning guys! What is it about hotel mirrors and lighting that you can't help but take a selfie... or two... and then some ๐.
I woke up and remembered these pictures and thought they would make a good #throwbackthursday ๐ฐ๏ธ They were taken at Hotel Axel in Madrid on December 2022 โบ๏ธ
My chemo break continues. I'm editing the music video, which I hope to have ready next week, and today I'll also save some time to work on music. Have a great Thursday ๐ โค๏ธ
2024-11-14 16:07:24 +0000 UTC
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Hey guys! My massage session with Eliud continues until something happens and we let our instincts take over ๐๐.
And I can tell you (and you will be able to tell) it felt amazing โบ๏ธ
Please welcome Eliud, he's about to open his own OF page, I'll let you know when it's ready so I can tag him properly, and please respect our privacy and don't post it elsewhere ๐๐ป
I'm working on the new version of the "Can I Be Loved" video and hopefully I'll be able to work on some surprises before the end of the week ๐ I'll...
2024-11-13 16:04:26 +0000 UTC
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Hey guys, I'm finally ready to edit the alternate version of "Can I Be Loved" that I filmed. A full frontal video, raw and maybe a little too intense...
You can find the uncut version of the video here (look in the video collection or click on the tags in this post).
These are a few frames I did back then testing some looks. The final video won't look like this, but I thought you'd enjoy them while I have it ready.
I've finally finished my third cycle of chemo. I got through it without any serious pro...
2024-11-12 18:36:32 +0000 UTC
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Good morning guys, here's a nice memory to start the week โบ๏ธ
These pictures depict one of my happy places, skinny dipping in the water, just enjoying the simple pleasure of water on my skin. ๐ฆ๐ผ
We took them the afternoon of my 54th birthday, the water was boiling hot, but I didn't care. I was a happy potato ๐คฃ.
I'm about to finish my third chemo cycle, and although it's ending without any major problems, my energy has been low (and a little weird) since Saturday, so I'm resting as much as I can. The good thing ...
2024-11-11 15:47:51 +0000 UTC
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Hey guys! Join me on the couch, let's have a nice long chat and maybe more ๐
I have very little time today, so I edited this picture for you that I made for the Halloween special this year. There are three more, I'll edit them when I have time. There will be a new video chapter tomorrow if I have time to edit it ๐
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Why such a hurry? Well, you know I have limited energy these days, I can usually do things until 12pm but that's it, the rest of the day I need to rest and take it easy. The thing is that Les Wright (founder of t...
2024-11-08 16:14:54 +0000 UTC
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Good morning guys! They say you need to massage the dough well to make a good cake ๐ฐ well, mine got the royal treatment this time ๐๐คช
Please welcome Eliud, this is the second part of our first collaboration together, a nice, long and relaxing massage that is slowly developing into... you'll know more tomorrow ๐
I'm doing well in this third cycle, still low on energy, but rest and good mood help. That's why I was mostly offline yesterday. You know what I mean ๐ .
Please take care of yourselves and reach out to ...
2024-11-07 15:47:50 +0000 UTC
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Good morning guys! Please welcome my dear friend Eliud ๐ปโบ๏ธ!
We met last Friday and started with a nice long and relaxing massage, please join us, it felt so great to have this after so many months โบ๏ธ
This is the first part of many to come, but as you know by now I love to start things slow and build up... ๐คช.
I'll try to edit parts daily and keep them coming. I will also let you know when Eliud has his OF profile up and running.
Now I'm going back to rest all day, have a nice Wednesday ๐โค๏ธ
2024-11-06 15:01:01 +0000 UTC
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Hey guys, just a quick post to let you know that 2 new sets of collab videos are coming very soon ๐.
Please meet my dear friend Eliud ๐งธ we took this picture just yesterday.
We had a great time together and I can't wait to share the videos with you, just give me some time to finish editing them ๐
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He's also putting together his OF profile, I'll let you know when it's ready.
Bear hugs! โค๏ธ
PS: this collab will ONLY be available here ๐
2024-11-05 17:28:13 +0000 UTC
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Morning folks, breakfast is on the table and its all yours ๐๐๐
This is the last post of this gallery, I'm happy to finally present it to you the way it should look. Sometimes photo shoots come out too dark or too noisy, but thanks to recent advances in photo editing tools, we are able to bring all those details back to life like there was never a problem to begin with โบ๏ธ (just wait for the Santa revival this year ho ho ho ๐
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As I told you the other day, I did two collabs with a dear friend (announcement coming...
2024-11-05 15:05:05 +0000 UTC
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Good morning guys! Here are two of my favorite pictures ever, for the first time exactly as they were taken ๐๐ธ.
Then I included the two additional ones we took, not as good, but just as revealing ๐.
Evert Arraรฑaga was the photographer. I just blurred the background and fixed the color, the rest is as it was. I've used some of these on other edits and artwork before, but they were more heavily processed. I found the originals the other day and thought it would be fun to revisit them.
I'm about halfway through this...
2024-11-04 15:08:30 +0000 UTC
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Good morning guys, it was Saturday night, a bar and I was back on the same stool waiting for you... ๐ธ๐ผ
We're about to say goodbye to this series, only one post left that will be coming soon. I was finally able to edit the pictures properly and they look the way they should. Many of them are presented here for the first time: โบ๏ธ
I'm editing my first collab since June as fast as I can (it takes time and energy, so give me some time), I'll announce it properly tomorrow (here's hoping) and start posting it the next day ๐...
2024-11-03 15:01:01 +0000 UTC
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Hey guys! My dear and very talented friend Saul Aguilar did this artwork inspired on my "pool party" series galleries you can find here.ย
I love how he reimagined everything, but I'm scared of those nipples LOL ๐
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I've also included a short video of his creation process for you to enjoy. Please follow Saul on Instagram (where his profile gets deleted from time to time, be sure to follow his backup accounts), X or Patreon. He's a wonderful guy and we need to support our artists in the community ๐.
2024-11-02 15:00:53 +0000 UTC
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Good morning everyone! Here's a little Halloween special, pumpkin or not pumpkin? swipe for your favorite ๐๐๐ป
Yesterday was a good day, I had a lot of energy, enough to do these special pics and.... drum roll please ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฅ... a COLLABORATION!!!!
Yes! You read it well. I have to edit it now (it's a long session) but it will be out soon. I think you'll like it, it's my first time doing something like this since May, and I was a little insecure, but it felt great. I'll try to edit it as soon as possible, I promise.
2024-11-01 15:01:01 +0000 UTC
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Good morning guys, just imagine what you would do if you found me sitting on a bar stool like this? ๐
FYI I've been in this situation twice and it was great, maybe we should try it ๐คช
I will try to do some Halloween related pics later, but feel free to browse my history here and the "halloween" tag in this post today for some past highlights ๐
Have a very spooky and fun Halloween ๐๐ป โค๏ธ
2024-10-31 15:01:07 +0000 UTC
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Two short videos to celebrate #wetwednesday ๐๐ฆ๐ป
2024-10-30 19:57:17 +0000 UTC
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