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I used my toy/masturbated today for the first time in sooooo..

I used my toy/masturbated today for the first time in sooooo long and can officially orgasm again 🥳 I still haven’t had sex tho since ????? and I’m not even gonna lie…. I’m kinda nervous for when I do (probably and hopefully very soon) 😂 it’s like I’m a virgin all over again. Luckily that’s not how it works though and I’ll probs be fine lmao. But damn, my anxiety really came back

I’ve had a WEEK! A longggg week… but an overall good one :) ..

I’ve had a WEEK! A longggg week… but an overall good one :) I had to switch to a new medication again, but think I’ve finally landed on one that’s gonna work!! It’s literally only day 2, but I have no side effects (yet… 🤞🏻) and woke up feeling more level than I have in awhile. And it takes 6 weeks to fully kick in, so it should only get better & better 💖

Other things that happened this week:

•My rats have mites and my dog has ringworm lol… that’s been fun to treat… good thing I had energy...

I can’t believe not a SINGLE person has ever guessed my one ..

I can’t believe not a SINGLE person has ever guessed my one remaining secret kink 😅😆 soooooo many people have come here over the years and read about my kinks, and not ONE !!! If anyone guessed it, I’d admit it too

Ps: it’s nothing illegal lol, just not common… apparently (& I’m happy to know it 😭)

Nvm not gonna go live bc I don’t think anyone will b there 😭..

Nvm not gonna go live bc I don’t think anyone will b there 😭😂 maybe tomorrow 🤍 it’s just hard to commit 24 hrs ahead at this time

edit: my sex drive is slowly coming backkkk thank goodness

Small update… that medication I was trying took a turn for t..

Small update… that medication I was trying took a turn for the worst and I had to abruptly stop taking it :( Been going through withdrawals in bed for a couple days and started up on a new med at the same time. This one is supposed to show results (or lack there of) sooner than the last one, so I’ll keep you posted 🤍

Pic 2 is so awkward, but it’s the best I got 🫠 I guess the h..

Pic 2 is so awkward, but it’s the best I got 🫠 I guess the headless aspect of pic 1 is a little awkward too but

Feeling sexy todayyyy 🙈

Feeling sexy todayyyy 🙈

I spent like 3 HOURS editing this 😄🙃 I’ve said it before and..

I spent like 3 HOURS editing this 😄🙃 I’ve said it before and I’m sayin it again… I love vlogging and editing, but pls be brutally honest if you guys just aren’t into them. I’d rather not do them and put those 5-6ish hours to just taking nudes or something else that you enjoy more!!! <3
(There will be more nudes too though obv. I’m just a chatty girly sometimes who can’t stfu hehe, so these are easy and fun… when I’m in the right mood)

I just spent hourssss doing an activity (not that exciting o..

I just spent hourssss doing an activity (not that exciting of one ngl) and filming one of my vloggy things for u!!! Will try to post tonight. I’m in a moood

all jokes <3 kinda….

all jokes <3 kinda….

YOU GUYS!!!!! I FEEL GOOOOOD TODAY!!!!! okay, maybe not THAT..

YOU GUYS!!!!! I FEEL GOOOOOD TODAY!!!!!
okay, maybe not THAT ⇡ good, but soooo much better than the past week! i’ve felt better, emotionally, but i actually had a little energy today. i was out of bed for 9 hours straight (sad achievement, but an achievement nonetheless…) and was productive. and i feel kindaaaaaaaa… a little bit… maybe… HORNY!! ahhhhhh, i’m feeling hopeful. how are you? 🤍

ps: i also found myself at a sex shop today and got another clone a pussy AND nipple sucker things?? hahaha idek, but the...

This feels so inappropriate to post. My life’s so weird 😂 bu..

This feels so inappropriate to post. My life’s so weird 😂 but the details of a pussy kinda fascinate me. Like it’s so intricate lmao.
I’m in a weird mood right now. I feel like everything I’m saying is so strange and like, my perception of the world is different today. Not good or bad. Just weird. I can’t explain it, but I feel… strange. That’s besides the point though… not talking would probs be best, so I’ll hush up now lol. I hope you like this pic I took for you <3


My entire page is so stran...

i’m pretty sure i’m overdue for an essay-length overshare th..

i’m pretty sure i’m overdue for an essay-length overshare that no one asked for!!! but at this point, with how little i post both here and on instagram, i’m telling myself that anyone still here really likes me—maybe because you relate to some of my struggles? maybe not, but let’s go…

so, i briefly mentioned this in my last vlog, but i went off the medication i’d been on for 9 years (it stopped working), and tonight is night 7 of my new one. long story short: this sucks. long story long: the first 2 days were ...

Should I try a butt plug? I’m not thatttt interested in ‘em…..

Should I try a butt plug? I’m not thatttt interested in ‘em… but they also make sparkly/cute ones lmao

I hope u enjoy the little voice note 😉😂

I hope u enjoy the little voice note 😉😂

4 of the 364 aforementioned selfies i took 🤠😛

4 of the 364 aforementioned selfies i took 🤠😛

what's been the highlight of YOUR past month or so?

what's been the highlight of YOUR past month or so?

i haven't had sex in i don't even wanna say how long 😫🥺☹️💔 s..

i haven't had sex in i don't even wanna say how long 😫🥺☹️💔 someone come fuck me 🙏🏻

u have to eat me out first and give me back scratchies after tho

i got cut off bc of insufficient storage, but it’s prob for ..

i got cut off bc of insufficient storage, but it’s prob for the best lol…
2nd thing i wanted to discuss though, is why i haven’t logged into OF since i got my account back 4 days ago. in summary: i suck (not in a self deprecating way. it’s just a cold hard truth… but a temporary one that i’m actively working on 😆)

thank goodness i already so much great content on my wall to keep u busy whenever i’m away!! (glass half full, right!)

ps: sorry i don't know how to put a tripod at the right height
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hiii im sorry to those of u who were on live w me earlier wh..

hiii im sorry to those of u who were on live w me earlier who i just left hanging w out any goodbye... i got distracted and well, u know, imma mess. but that was rude D: tomorrow i will send the long term subscriber vid i still owe some of ya... and try to chat and all that. i am making no commitments other than 2 or more pics for all of youuuu + sending out any paid for ppvs/those vids + any tips from u nice humans who've been left sitting for way too long :( ... but my ✨hopes✨ are high for even more

for now though, i need re...

I'M BACK, I'M BACK, I'M BACKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (if u didn't..

I'M BACK, I'M BACK, I'M BACKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (if u didn't notice, i lost full access to my account for 3 days) omg... there aren't enough words to express how happy i am. update & pic(s) coming soon ❤️❤️❤️❤️

is this a hot idea or no....?i got a candy lingerie set. lik..

is this a hot idea or no....?

i got a candy lingerie set. like you know those necklaces that you eat the candy off of? it's that with a "bra" and "panties". i wanted to do something w it for v-day, but forgot haha.

i feel like it would be hot to eat the pieces off one by one until i'm fully naked. but that's gonna take a lotttttt of time. probably take pics and then put it all together with a little bit of talking or something fun at the end. maybe a dildo. who tf knows.

i know a lot of y'all hate commenting,...

should i wake my partner up w a bj.........??? it's 2am and ..

should i wake my partner up w a bj.........??? it's 2am and he has work in a few hours so i'm lowkey afraid of rejection lolol.... BUT I'M HORNY 😭 (unfortunately my horny hours are 2-4am haha)

idk if this is weird to ask u, but im new to this whole relationship & sex thing 😂 sooooo... would YOU like it if it were u and u were fucking exhausted? lol i need u to decide for me! thanks <333

ps: we've discussed this & both given each other consent. he's actually encouraged me to try but i haven't yet because...

happy valentines day 🥰🫶🏻

happy valentines day 🥰🫶🏻

should I send out my BJ vid as a ppv? i'm reading comments o..

should I send out my BJ vid as a ppv? i'm reading comments on posts and chats now and see a lot of you saying you will love whatever i send out, but like.... i do NOT look good. go see the short clip i posted... that's the hottest part... but i'm down to send it out if y'all really don't care. but like... i look icky to me and know i can do sooooo much better. so decide for me:
do i send this shitty bj vid as my first bj vid just so it's not another 6 months till i film one... or do i wait?

ur girl needs a good fucking NOW seriously im so horny loli'..

ur girl needs a good fucking NOW
seriously im so horny lol

i'm sorry my posting slipped for a moment!! like, not THAT sorry (come on, i'm otherwise killin it pretty damn hard lately. and i'm not trying to be a daily poster 😜), but still a little sorry!!! i've been thinking nonstop about how i want to post, but refrained because i got into that whole "i suck major dick (the icky kind, not yummy) for posting without chatting for so long again" anxiety spiral. but who tf would choose no posts AND no chats over posts and no c...

lesson learned... don't ask a man to take nudes of me if i d..

lesson learned... don't ask a man to take nudes of me if i don't want him to fuck me after

thankfully, that's exactly what i wanted 😋 i'm sure this is good knowledge to have though!

it's so hot to watch a guy jerk off 🤤🙈

it's so hot to watch a guy jerk off 🤤🙈

oof... i might've been a tad bit dramatic yesterday. love th..

oof... i might've been a tad bit dramatic yesterday. love that for me! i'm very much okay though, just fyi :) my brain's been wired this way my entire life and i **usually** handle the lows very well!! "very well" meaning i'm not a safety risk to myself and i can distract myself, not meaning i'm able to hide my mental state 😂 we're clearly still working on that!! returning to reality after a manic episode is always pretty hard, but i move on fast enough.

but, uhhhh... anyways... let's move on RIGHT NOW actually 😝......

I hope these cumshot pics will cancel out the lameness of th..

I hope these cumshot pics will cancel out the lameness of the caption ahead ♥️🤞🏻

Sooooo, the verdict is in!! This past month was, in fact, mania (actually hypomania, I just say mania). NOT me magically becoming a new person who's happy and full of energy all the time!! I'm extremely embarrassed that I put this on display for everyone AGAIN. I honestly really don't want to be telling you this right now, but I know I wouldn't be able to hide it for long. Showering is already feeling like a major chore again. Plus I know th...